Lovey dovey mode turned on ;)

Haha… Bluey month with lil cute bluey things! The only happy blue. Still don’t know whom I’m talking about? It’s the little cute Smurf friends!!! Haha, I can see “ ohw, my Smurf reaction” lol!!!

That’s not what I want to write now although I bet u can see a lil bit of smurfy language here and there. I’m going to write about my euphoria feeling for the guy I’m in love with. Definitely it’s gonna be boring if you are not a lovey dovey person or in lovey dovey mood. So I’m warning you early not to continue.

Here is the thing about my guy. He is not so romantic but intense, we rarely control each other life, less calls but when he did his voice, concern or care is overwhelming. Simply put he had it all to make me go crazy.

What so intriguing about him? What made me fall so deeply for him? I’m still smurfing looking for the answer! haha … Is it the way he always look at me. Or is it the husky voice I always love to hear. Or is it the somewhat muscular + toned body. Or is it his character which sometimes can cause me to go on roller coaster ride. Or his sense of humor although sometimes he can be such an irritating species. Or his flirty message. Or the way he always makes me want him no matter what. All I know is he is my best friend and we know each other for more than 10 years. But the romantic relationship somewhat started 3 years ago. We can’t take it to next level because both of us still settling down. He is continuing his degree and I’m just found my dream profession. It is still a long way to go for us before we become financially stable and settle down. But I’m not going to worry about that. Because I’m enjoying the whole journey towards that goal where till death do us apart. Even if we did’nt not make it to that point, the memory of this is way beautiful to be treasured for eternity.

Another weird thing is the chemistry and the comfort I felt whenever he is around. I can feel the swinging heart beat and the blood rush which creates the type of euphoria like you are on top of the world. The simple flirting and playful seducing where at the end we both end up laughing at each other. ~ a bit annoying sometime~ Besides, I can be myself. With shorts and simple tee. Without make up, without any fear of what he might think or feel or will he like my flawed skin. People say the comfort and chemistry will build up as we see or live with each other but for us we only meet few months once. Yet it always feels like we lived 10 years together. Hmmmm weirdly the feeling is also the same even after our greatest fight (like no contact or no nothing for 7 months – my previous emo blog is also referring to the same person I’m talking here.)

I really hope there will be a happy ending for this. ~keep fingers crossed~. If it doesn’t then God might have a great plan for me! Life goes on as usual. But I like to live in present without the fear of past or puzzle of future. So now I’m soooooo smurfing in love with him!

Something cool

Are you sick of hearing non-sense songs all the day? Especially the one from the artist you hated most like Justin B or etc! Have u ever felt u could own a radio station that only plays your favourite artists or favourite songs? Now here is the solution! JANGO!!!!!!!  

No, no it’s not some kind of fancy word or jargons! That’s the website that could solve your problems! You can create your own radio station and listen to it all night long! No charge, no nothing! Very simple! Just log in using your facebook account or create your own account and that’s it! You can select your favourite artist (no limit) and hear your favourite music all day long! I’m not promoting it and I ain’t getting anything for it! But still I’m sharing this because I find it very cool!

Enjoy! J

Something special from my dearest cousin :D

dedicated to my awesome cousins...
Jaya Sutha Emmqay Dev Dewa Logeshan Letchumanan DhaNee Laksh EmmqayThivvya Emmqay Pravin Kanna

the strength of my life
in this fast paced life
there are so many things 
that may go out of control...
and at this moment of our lives...
there are some people who are
always ready to help and support us....
these are the people we trust and can
never live without...
in my life...these people are...
my cousins...
well..i am the kind of person who never
listens to advices...and my cousins
they know that..but anyhow..they make me listen to them..
even when they know that i am not listening...
when the day that all my hopes fall of my expectations...
is when i realized that whatever they have been saying is true..
i regret all the disagreements with them..
but they still approach me with a smile on
their faces and help me work it through the day...
and present me with the warm comfort...
as the only child in my family...
it is lonely and bored..
but my cousins never made me feelthat way...
they make me smile..no matter
what the day brings me...
because...the happiness they give me
is larger than anything on earth...
love you guys!!!!


Kayshaa Emmqay

This very precious! :) n I will love them always :D

My paradise....

Back again. I told tht i’ll update about my bird nest soon. So this is my “bird nest”. My own hiding place / comfort zone. It is my heaven.

One of the view from my room. Very impressive structures n love the the whole location.

This is my room. The pink reflection is from the curtain. It really creates a very homey mood when I got up in the morning despite the fact that some time this colour is way too bright that I can't sleep till midday on my off day!

  This is my combined bed. hehe .. Two single bed = One queen sized bed ;)

My messy room. My room, My mess, My business! lol   

Cool view of KL city. Sadly I don't have a SLR to get sharp image. will get it soon :D

And that's all. There will be more to come. I get a great sunset view from my room. It is just that I won't be home by then to captured it. Will get it soon :)

Back Again n This Time ALIVE with Wonderful Stories! :)

So far this year has been one of the most unpredictable year in my life. Drastic changes took over now and then. Some was bad and some is really good. From January to May, it had been my worst nightmare of the year. And beginning of June I can already see good things happenings around me. From now on the positive side of me will take control of my life! N I'm all glad about it.

Bad job, sucky employer, family problems, unnecessary arguments in relationship n etc (the list goes on n on n on) were my bad experiences throughout the half of the year. And now, new job, relationship, new environment, recovery from family problems are some of the exciting elements that made this June the most anticipated month of the year 2011.

I’m working as Biomedical Technologist in Stemlife. It is my new job in very established company. Being a Biotechnology graduate, I really went through so many obstacles to get a suitable job for myself. I was unemployed for nearly 5 months before I was appointed as a Food Technologist.  For the truth, I know nuts about food industry or about the job scope. Due to my desperation I just took the job and there started my journey to hell! Working more than 12 hours per day, routine job, employer who does not care about worker’s welfare( not me but how she/he treated other workers), tremendously stupid company policy and rules and regulation and etc.

On the fifth month, I started finding for job ; Updated my resume and skills again. It took me around 3 weeks before I really get the type of job I wanted. And after successful interview and blood screening they (Stemlife) offered me the position. From that on, my life took a different direction. I got a chance to experience the Metropolitan lifestyle. Being in KL and working some where it only takes 5 mins to get to KLCC is superbly cool ( yeah, because my previous company located somewhat in hideous place where those who will come to visit me will definitely get lose). Kl sky scrapers such as KL tower, Twin Tower, Maxis and so on are neighborhood for my company! Aren’t that really cool?

 Now my day starts watching all these beautiful buildings standing high and undeniably gorgeous. It always motivates me to have high goals. I also have nice working colleagues, flexible working hours (but sometimes have to work on weekend too), ample of rest and off days and the most important thing is everyday is a learning day. I need to keep my imagination high again n of course refresh whatever I’ve learnt throughout my degree. I just love every element of my new job. Altogether it is like I have found my treasure after a rough journey.

The next blog will be about my coolest but expensive room. Hopefully I can upload all the pics J

My New Addiction

This Tamil song from movie named Sarvam had infected me as a viral fever. It just can't be taken out of my mind. I still can hear the music and visualized the scenes. It just sooooooooo romantic. I have an english translation too. It will be good if you can get the real meaning of the song. It just AWESOME. Enjoy :)

You & me

My life was complete in the hands of the 5 most beloved people

You took one from me and said “you survive with it”

It was not easy but I did survived. I strive the lost and the consequences of it.

And guess what, I had passed through it successfully although it hurts to the core of my heart.

I was happy again. The world was a lovely place to live with. I met great souls and minds which

fascinated me, supported me and loved me most.

I was happy

Then, one day this soul needed a new love. Not mother’s love, sibling’s love, relative’s love nor

friend’s love.

It needed a new love.

A man’s love.

How would it be to be loved by a guy?

A guy that sincerely gives his heart to u.

A guy who will take care of you and be there for you.

A guy who will comfort you when you are down

A guy who will make your heart leap when you see him

A guy who will bring a smile to your face without saying anything

A guy who will accept you and love you just the way you are

The soul started to search for this guy.

And it found one.

A guy who was with me all the while but I did not realise he was there for me.

A guy who tried so hard to convey his feelings but I did not know of his existence.

Things started to change once I realized his feeling.

One conversation at midnight changed my life forever.

I fell in love

Deeply in love with a guy whom I thought I knew him long enough to safely fell in love with him

That was a most loveliest feeling one can ever feel

The butterflies flatters in my stomach whenever I see him is beyond any scientific explanation

The chemistry I felt was so intriguing and magnificent to an extent I can even wake from my deep

sleep to wait for his call or text.

And guess what,he will exactly call a minute later which is unexplainable. Not once but many times.

Then, I know he was the soul mate I waited for long.

I confessed my feeling for him,

Bring down the wall around my heart for him to see it

Let him win over me

I know he is the end of my life.

And this will be forever.

I was at the top of the world.

But that never last long.

You see, Someone (God) up there just could not stand watch me having a happy life.

He wants all my love for Him only.

So, He turned over everything

Everything became a mistake

I should have left him chased me more.

I should not have fell for him so easily

He went away.

The more I fell for him, the far he went away

Communication broke down between us

Things started to get sour

My world went upside down

All this happened without any reason.

He backed off

No reasons was given

No words was spoken

No nothing

I wonder what went wrong

After all and after everything when everything supposed to bloom perfectly he should not have did

this to me

My heart was torn in two.

I bleed day and night

Still I survived.

I swallowed the lump in my throat and gathered the pieces of my broken heart

To put my feet on something more solid

The reality.

It is enough of me sailed through the ocean of imagination in the ship of love.

It was pleasant journey at beginning but when a storm strike my ship sunk

Not even love is strong enough to survive that storm

But even in this darkness I found the light

The courage to be Me again

Yes, I did survived that.

 But the pain and disappointment were still there.

I know life had to move on

There are people who depend on me now

They had done their best to raise me up

Now it is my turn to keep them happy and comfortable

For this I will swallow this pain and get back to my life

After months of hard work, my life had finally settled

I was a career woman

A woman with a job and also some major responsibilities

A woman with everything but not the love she yearns for.

She still waits for him thinking he just needed some time to adapt to the changes.

Haha, guess what she was dreaming again

A day came when I got to know that he was in relationship

Then I realized that all this while I have not accept the reality

I cheated myself to forget the pain he left

Now he is gone forever

And this time I believe strongly that I will survive again!!!!

And to the Man up there, this is what I want to tell you

No matter what come up in my life

Be it a storm or tsunami or anything

I Will Not Ever Give Up On My Life nor On You!

There will be a day for You to realize that You had played enough game on me

And Now it is time to stop all that

And give this girl the life and love she needed.

Till then I will only say

“I Will Survive”