You & me

My life was complete in the hands of the 5 most beloved people

You took one from me and said “you survive with it”

It was not easy but I did survived. I strive the lost and the consequences of it.

And guess what, I had passed through it successfully although it hurts to the core of my heart.

I was happy again. The world was a lovely place to live with. I met great souls and minds which

fascinated me, supported me and loved me most.

I was happy

Then, one day this soul needed a new love. Not mother’s love, sibling’s love, relative’s love nor

friend’s love.

It needed a new love.

A man’s love.

How would it be to be loved by a guy?

A guy that sincerely gives his heart to u.

A guy who will take care of you and be there for you.

A guy who will comfort you when you are down

A guy who will make your heart leap when you see him

A guy who will bring a smile to your face without saying anything

A guy who will accept you and love you just the way you are

The soul started to search for this guy.

And it found one.

A guy who was with me all the while but I did not realise he was there for me.

A guy who tried so hard to convey his feelings but I did not know of his existence.

Things started to change once I realized his feeling.

One conversation at midnight changed my life forever.

I fell in love

Deeply in love with a guy whom I thought I knew him long enough to safely fell in love with him

That was a most loveliest feeling one can ever feel

The butterflies flatters in my stomach whenever I see him is beyond any scientific explanation

The chemistry I felt was so intriguing and magnificent to an extent I can even wake from my deep

sleep to wait for his call or text.

And guess what,he will exactly call a minute later which is unexplainable. Not once but many times.

Then, I know he was the soul mate I waited for long.

I confessed my feeling for him,

Bring down the wall around my heart for him to see it

Let him win over me

I know he is the end of my life.

And this will be forever.

I was at the top of the world.

But that never last long.

You see, Someone (God) up there just could not stand watch me having a happy life.

He wants all my love for Him only.

So, He turned over everything

Everything became a mistake

I should have left him chased me more.

I should not have fell for him so easily

He went away.

The more I fell for him, the far he went away

Communication broke down between us

Things started to get sour

My world went upside down

All this happened without any reason.

He backed off

No reasons was given

No words was spoken

No nothing

I wonder what went wrong

After all and after everything when everything supposed to bloom perfectly he should not have did

this to me

My heart was torn in two.

I bleed day and night

Still I survived.

I swallowed the lump in my throat and gathered the pieces of my broken heart

To put my feet on something more solid

The reality.

It is enough of me sailed through the ocean of imagination in the ship of love.

It was pleasant journey at beginning but when a storm strike my ship sunk

Not even love is strong enough to survive that storm

But even in this darkness I found the light

The courage to be Me again

Yes, I did survived that.

 But the pain and disappointment were still there.

I know life had to move on

There are people who depend on me now

They had done their best to raise me up

Now it is my turn to keep them happy and comfortable

For this I will swallow this pain and get back to my life

After months of hard work, my life had finally settled

I was a career woman

A woman with a job and also some major responsibilities

A woman with everything but not the love she yearns for.

She still waits for him thinking he just needed some time to adapt to the changes.

Haha, guess what she was dreaming again

A day came when I got to know that he was in relationship

Then I realized that all this while I have not accept the reality

I cheated myself to forget the pain he left

Now he is gone forever

And this time I believe strongly that I will survive again!!!!

And to the Man up there, this is what I want to tell you

No matter what come up in my life

Be it a storm or tsunami or anything

I Will Not Ever Give Up On My Life nor On You!

There will be a day for You to realize that You had played enough game on me

And Now it is time to stop all that

And give this girl the life and love she needed.

Till then I will only say

“I Will Survive”