12122011

Another sick day! I did nothing except taking enough rest. Slept well. And also find some time to do my slides for tomorrow's presentation! I thought of postpone it to some other day. But then again, what to delay?  I have my findings and the slides are prepared. So just do the best.

It has been more than a year since my last presentation. Most probably I would have lost all my skills. So tomorrow will be a good day for me to test it. Hopefully, I will be fit (physically) enough to do it.

Wish me luck!

08122011 - 11122011

Going through pretty bad health recently. Loss all my energy and appetite due to food poisoning. My body becoming very vulnerable to foreign matter. And seriously, I'm getting very weak. Hope to more bed rest. But that's impossible with working life. Took one day MC. But it's not doing any good. Hope to get well soon.

07122011

Such a tiring and exhausting day. A lot of things on pending. I got to work on two projects. First, to come up with standards of operation in Architec room (disease detection room). Second, from my Managing Director to do more research on the structures of amniotic membrane.

The first task is in drafting process. Tomorrow I have meeting with my supervisor and lab manager. Hope everything will go well. Later on I have to start my second task. The very interesting one :)

06122011

 Suffering from insomnia!  From last night. My eyes were wide awake till my alarm rang at 0530. I was very restless and tired. But surprisingly I had a really good and interesting day at work. First of all, we had few samples. So by 1200 we were settled with our processing.

 Later on, our Managing Director, Dato Sharon low pay a visit to lab. She brought a real human embryo sac just for us to get a better picture on how to withdraw cord blood from umbilical cord. It was thick tissues with lots of blood vessels. I actually touched (with gloves) and feel the structures of umbilical cord. It was very rubberish yet very strong. It really need sharp surgical scissors to cut it off. Besides, we also examine the amniotic membrane. It was as though it made of thick fibers plus mesh of flexible membranes. It was very stretchable and flexible. It really took quite force just to tear it off. Other than this, we examine placenta. It provides nutrient and oxygen to fetus during pregnancy. So, we can see a lot of thick tissues with lots of blood vessels. At one point, the structures look a bit like brain (but not as pale as brain).

Well being a Biomedical Technologist, doesn’t expose us to events behind the scenes especially the procedures involved in withdrawing blood from umbilical cord when the baby born. Hence, today experience was really great. It just makes me to appreciate the very nature of human being. I just wonder how much of force and pain a mother should have to go through during the labor pain. It really seems very scary now.

I was very excited and curious during the whole procedure. But only later on, I got the effect. I can’t have my food. I was kept on thinking about the structures. I felt a lump at my throat throughout the evening. Hahaha side effect I guess. Luckily, I was not a doctor.

05122011

Hahahaha! A Day for shopping!!! Finally, I had a day off after hectic four days of working. Really had a good sleep till midday J. Then, went to Jusco to buy groceries and also to look for pants. Surprisingly, I figured out today that I’m lose a lot lately especially on the lower part of the body! I’m losing my ASS, which once WAS my asset!!!!!! None of the slim cut pants looks nicer without nice butt! 

Somewhat by end of the day, I had found 2 suitable pants for casual and office wear. Need to prepare for tomorrow work (mentally). One day off is not enough for me. I’m really hope that  I can do more on-calls starting from next months which is better than my noon or morning shift. Can get extra 100 bucks. Oh, talking about money, I remembered something! I need to do my budget for this month. huhuhu

04122011

  

Bad day altogether! (I’m wondering why there are continues bad events taking place from the moment I started this countdown!) Insecurities and misunderstandings are the major culprits in my relationship. Had few problems lately. Seriously, don’t know how to handle it. Taking one step at a time. Sometimes I wish I could escape from all of this.

Woke up feeling bad. And I was frustrated that I got to work on Sunday as well. So as usual I get ready to work. At LRT station a foreigner (Bangladeshi, I assume) was acting weirdly! He was neither a student nor worker. He was wearing formally. So I thought he was going to church or etc. Suddenly he came little bit closer and was staring at my handbag. The place was very crowded. So somewhat I braved myself and stay close to a group of students.

In the train, he was continuously staring at me and my bag. It was so obvious that people around me started to notice. Once I reached my station, KLCC I quickly try to get down. I felt someone was pushing from behind. I hold on to my handbag tightly. As soon as I came out of train, a passenger from the train itself (male) pushed that foreigner claiming that he was the one who pushed the crowd. Sooner it turns out to be a fight! Without delaying I quickly mixed with a huge crowd just to get away from this stranger.

Once I got out of the station, I took a deep breath. Luckily, the fight took place! It gave me a chance to escape! If it otherwise, I could not imagine what would have happen. Worst come to worst, he would have snatched my bag or ………..

I really hope I could forget all this and have a good night rest hoping that tomorrow will be a good day for me. (crossing my fingers)

03122011

Pretty bad day!

1.        Went late for work due to some technical problem with the LRT ~sign of bad day ahead.

2.       16 samples but only 2 people working L.  Start processing around 0730 and everything completed at 1600. Yes, and that’s working without any breakfast o lunch break! Felt so exhausted that I can’t able to stand a minute after 1600.

3.       Thought of checking out sales in Suria KLCC (pretty good offer), but it was a huge crowd everywhere due to UMNO meeting! So plan cancelled!

Good thing

1.       Took a week off starting from 1^st January till 7^th January

2.       Planning for a holiday in Krabi or Phuket. Yeay!

Countdown to my 25th b'day - 02122011

Exactly, 30 days from now on, I will be 25 years old! Like freaking 25! How I wish I can stop aging (just like Bella) at the age of 24. Or at least I hope my biological clock will stop! ! What I had achieved so far? A lot of things are buzzing in m mind now!

The only thing I had achieved at the age of 24 is finding a perfect career. A career which I loved and had passion since I’m 17. But I know I had developed and changed the way I think. Although it is not something everyone can see in a glance. 

Working life had taught me to be tough, independent, creative and etc. I was so naïve when I first started my working life. But now, I know which trail to follow, who to believe and what to do. Frankly speaking I’m looking for more challenges in my working life. And that what exactly I’m expecting more in coming years to strengthen myself and broaden my thinking. Got a task for the moment! Hope to excel well.

There are so much of differences me at the age of 23 and me the age of 24. So I’m going to note down each and everything that will happen in my last thirty days of 24. Hopefully it will be exciting and be something memorable!

Relaxing day

What is your definitions of relaxing day? Is it waking up late in the noon n do nothing at all? O do things you enjoy all day without any disturbance? Or etc... For me, my perfect day is my relaxing day:D.

There will be this warm sunshine in my room every morning to awake me from my sweet dreams. Sensitive to light, so there will be me with my blanket trying to hide away from it and catch up with my dreams. After around an hour of battle, I’ll give up and will find a will to get up from my warm bed.

I have sharp senses. I love nice smell in morning. I love fresh citrus smell or fresh ocean breeze smell or simple lavender aromatherapy smell (which I’m using currently). I love the way how the smell kindle with my senses and creating the very HAPPY mode. If u could ever trigger this happy mode (scientifically speaking, it is the hormone serotonin I’m talking about) ta dahh, u will only have a PERFECT day and I can guarantee you it will be your best day.

Simple stretch out just to release any tension in muscle from last night sleep. Then brush teeth n etc. Since kid, I have this habit of turning the tv on early morning especially in weekends to catch up with few cartoons. I’m not a hypocrite. I’ll admit that until now I do watch cartoons. Sometime I have to fight with my sister just to catch up with few episodes of Sponge Bob. Tom and Jerry, Looney Toons, Pink Panther and some classic cartoons are my favorites. There goes another an hour laughing my heart out at my favorite show. I simply enjoy the chillness of morning and I snuggle a while in my warm bed just to get heat while watching it. Girls they’ll always need something warm in the morning.

There comes another moment to stimulate my other sense. Taste bud! My perfect breakfast will be coffee with freshly baked apricot plus sunflower seed bread. It’s from Cake Sense. One of the tastiest bread I ever tasted! Skimming through newspaper of the day or facebooking while having my delicious breakfast will just spice up everything.

Pampering myself is also one of my agenda in my relaxing day. Applying body scrub while massaging the body, or just soak the tired foot in warm water or just put on the newly bought face mask from Body Shop will just do fine. There is something about pampering yourself. It makes you calm and extremely makes you feel good about yourself. It creates a positive look and you’ll start admiring everything especially this very moment where you can enjoy and do anything you like.

If you are staying with your loved ones, then just the presence of them by your side will simply brighten your day.

Back Again n This Time ALIVE with Wonderful Stories! :)

So far this year has been one of the most unpredictable year in my life. Drastic changes took over now and then. Some was bad and some is really good. From January to May, it had been my worst nightmare of the year. And beginning of June I can already see good things happenings around me. From now on the positive side of me will take control of my life! N I'm all glad about it.

Bad job, sucky employer, family problems, unnecessary arguments in relationship n etc (the list goes on n on n on) were my bad experiences throughout the half of the year. And now, new job, relationship, new environment, recovery from family problems are some of the exciting elements that made this June the most anticipated month of the year 2011.

I’m working as Biomedical Technologist in Stemlife. It is my new job in very established company. Being a Biotechnology graduate, I really went through so many obstacles to get a suitable job for myself. I was unemployed for nearly 5 months before I was appointed as a Food Technologist.  For the truth, I know nuts about food industry or about the job scope. Due to my desperation I just took the job and there started my journey to hell! Working more than 12 hours per day, routine job, employer who does not care about worker’s welfare( not me but how she/he treated other workers), tremendously stupid company policy and rules and regulation and etc.

On the fifth month, I started finding for job ; Updated my resume and skills again. It took me around 3 weeks before I really get the type of job I wanted. And after successful interview and blood screening they (Stemlife) offered me the position. From that on, my life took a different direction. I got a chance to experience the Metropolitan lifestyle. Being in KL and working some where it only takes 5 mins to get to KLCC is superbly cool ( yeah, because my previous company located somewhat in hideous place where those who will come to visit me will definitely get lose). Kl sky scrapers such as KL tower, Twin Tower, Maxis and so on are neighborhood for my company! Aren’t that really cool?

 Now my day starts watching all these beautiful buildings standing high and undeniably gorgeous. It always motivates me to have high goals. I also have nice working colleagues, flexible working hours (but sometimes have to work on weekend too), ample of rest and off days and the most important thing is everyday is a learning day. I need to keep my imagination high again n of course refresh whatever I’ve learnt throughout my degree. I just love every element of my new job. Altogether it is like I have found my treasure after a rough journey.

The next blog will be about my coolest but expensive room. Hopefully I can upload all the pics J

My New Addiction

This Tamil song from movie named Sarvam had infected me as a viral fever. It just can't be taken out of my mind. I still can hear the music and visualized the scenes. It just sooooooooo romantic. I have an english translation too. It will be good if you can get the real meaning of the song. It just AWESOME. Enjoy :)

You & me

My life was complete in the hands of the 5 most beloved people

You took one from me and said “you survive with it”

It was not easy but I did survived. I strive the lost and the consequences of it.

And guess what, I had passed through it successfully although it hurts to the core of my heart.

I was happy again. The world was a lovely place to live with. I met great souls and minds which

fascinated me, supported me and loved me most.

I was happy

Then, one day this soul needed a new love. Not mother’s love, sibling’s love, relative’s love nor

friend’s love.

It needed a new love.

A man’s love.

How would it be to be loved by a guy?

A guy that sincerely gives his heart to u.

A guy who will take care of you and be there for you.

A guy who will comfort you when you are down

A guy who will make your heart leap when you see him

A guy who will bring a smile to your face without saying anything

A guy who will accept you and love you just the way you are

The soul started to search for this guy.

And it found one.

A guy who was with me all the while but I did not realise he was there for me.

A guy who tried so hard to convey his feelings but I did not know of his existence.

Things started to change once I realized his feeling.

One conversation at midnight changed my life forever.

I fell in love

Deeply in love with a guy whom I thought I knew him long enough to safely fell in love with him

That was a most loveliest feeling one can ever feel

The butterflies flatters in my stomach whenever I see him is beyond any scientific explanation

The chemistry I felt was so intriguing and magnificent to an extent I can even wake from my deep

sleep to wait for his call or text.

And guess what,he will exactly call a minute later which is unexplainable. Not once but many times.

Then, I know he was the soul mate I waited for long.

I confessed my feeling for him,

Bring down the wall around my heart for him to see it

Let him win over me

I know he is the end of my life.

And this will be forever.

I was at the top of the world.

But that never last long.

You see, Someone (God) up there just could not stand watch me having a happy life.

He wants all my love for Him only.

So, He turned over everything

Everything became a mistake

I should have left him chased me more.

I should not have fell for him so easily

He went away.

The more I fell for him, the far he went away

Communication broke down between us

Things started to get sour

My world went upside down

All this happened without any reason.

He backed off

No reasons was given

No words was spoken

No nothing

I wonder what went wrong

After all and after everything when everything supposed to bloom perfectly he should not have did

this to me

My heart was torn in two.

I bleed day and night

Still I survived.

I swallowed the lump in my throat and gathered the pieces of my broken heart

To put my feet on something more solid

The reality.

It is enough of me sailed through the ocean of imagination in the ship of love.

It was pleasant journey at beginning but when a storm strike my ship sunk

Not even love is strong enough to survive that storm

But even in this darkness I found the light

The courage to be Me again

Yes, I did survived that.

 But the pain and disappointment were still there.

I know life had to move on

There are people who depend on me now

They had done their best to raise me up

Now it is my turn to keep them happy and comfortable

For this I will swallow this pain and get back to my life

After months of hard work, my life had finally settled

I was a career woman

A woman with a job and also some major responsibilities

A woman with everything but not the love she yearns for.

She still waits for him thinking he just needed some time to adapt to the changes.

Haha, guess what she was dreaming again

A day came when I got to know that he was in relationship

Then I realized that all this while I have not accept the reality

I cheated myself to forget the pain he left

Now he is gone forever

And this time I believe strongly that I will survive again!!!!

And to the Man up there, this is what I want to tell you

No matter what come up in my life

Be it a storm or tsunami or anything

I Will Not Ever Give Up On My Life nor On You!

There will be a day for You to realize that You had played enough game on me

And Now it is time to stop all that

And give this girl the life and love she needed.

Till then I will only say

“I Will Survive”

My Trip To Penang with My Bestie :)

We reached Penang around 5pm after a hectic jam in North - South Highway (Supposed to reach 3 pm). Danny fetched us. We hit his apartment, relaxing, chatting and catch up on whatever we had missed for almost two years! ( gosh that's long !!). And the trip began.......

Oh yeah, this is in Soho! A pub with good home-made food and great entertainment. Also discovered a new talent in me ;). I can play pool! weehaaa!

Oh, this is Shal - in action! Love her expression! Full of wildness :D

Day 2 started with Dim Sum. Good meal :)

One of the interesting shops! I wonder who in the earth will wear this except night club dancers! hmmmm...

Me love this telephone booth since I was a kid! 

Cute Beca!

Love this art and the hidden person lol :P

Free delivery for lunch :)

It is really nice to spend wonderful time with ur besties and buddies! ( from left Nadia, Danny, me n Shal)

Trip ended with hot dances!!! *wink*wink* (from left Nadia, Rubi, me n Shal)

This trip is a ticket for us (me n Shal) to get out of our stressful life. It had been simple, relaxing and beautiful. Hope to have more fun trips next time :) 

One of my very romantic imagination made into film!

Well i'm not a really romantic person. Perhaps I could be! but I didn't have much experience being with a partner or been there in any romantic situation! But it is usual for girls ( at least me) to imagine romantic stuff when they were alone. Like the very sweet romantic walk during sunsets, candlelights dinner, sitting by a lake side during full moon and stary night and etc. Well this video was one of my very romantic imagination. i was taken back when I came across this scene while watching the twelveth episodes of Vampire Diaries season 2! It was such a beautiful scene. The sun, horses, on top of hills in your loved ones arms. Hmmm it just perfect. Look at chemistry they were in! It's lovely! I just can't help it but i'm keep on watching it again and again!