Happy New Year, 2012

Haha I wonder how some people can update their blogs daily. Definitely I’m a loser in this case. I can only do it so for 12 days (referring to my previous blog).

Thought of updating it every day to remember my last 31 days of 24. Neway, nothing special happens throughout the period. Had more conflicts and problems. The one best thing is my holiday plan is successful. I’m going to Langkawi for 4 days with my sister. 

It will definitely be a great escape for both of us! Can’t wait for it!!!!! I can already imagine the feel of breathing fresh air, walking along the sandy beach, sea breeze, sounds of waves, feel of the crystal clear water under my feet, breathtaking sunset. Oh! I really can’t wait for it already.

Hope everything goes well. Since it’s already 31/12/2011, I’m wishing everyone a Happy New Year. Have a AWESOME 2012! :D

07122011

Such a tiring and exhausting day. A lot of things on pending. I got to work on two projects. First, to come up with standards of operation in Architec room (disease detection room). Second, from my Managing Director to do more research on the structures of amniotic membrane.

The first task is in drafting process. Tomorrow I have meeting with my supervisor and lab manager. Hope everything will go well. Later on I have to start my second task. The very interesting one :)

06122011

 Suffering from insomnia!  From last night. My eyes were wide awake till my alarm rang at 0530. I was very restless and tired. But surprisingly I had a really good and interesting day at work. First of all, we had few samples. So by 1200 we were settled with our processing.

 Later on, our Managing Director, Dato Sharon low pay a visit to lab. She brought a real human embryo sac just for us to get a better picture on how to withdraw cord blood from umbilical cord. It was thick tissues with lots of blood vessels. I actually touched (with gloves) and feel the structures of umbilical cord. It was very rubberish yet very strong. It really need sharp surgical scissors to cut it off. Besides, we also examine the amniotic membrane. It was as though it made of thick fibers plus mesh of flexible membranes. It was very stretchable and flexible. It really took quite force just to tear it off. Other than this, we examine placenta. It provides nutrient and oxygen to fetus during pregnancy. So, we can see a lot of thick tissues with lots of blood vessels. At one point, the structures look a bit like brain (but not as pale as brain).

Well being a Biomedical Technologist, doesn’t expose us to events behind the scenes especially the procedures involved in withdrawing blood from umbilical cord when the baby born. Hence, today experience was really great. It just makes me to appreciate the very nature of human being. I just wonder how much of force and pain a mother should have to go through during the labor pain. It really seems very scary now.

I was very excited and curious during the whole procedure. But only later on, I got the effect. I can’t have my food. I was kept on thinking about the structures. I felt a lump at my throat throughout the evening. Hahaha side effect I guess. Luckily, I was not a doctor.

05122011

Hahahaha! A Day for shopping!!! Finally, I had a day off after hectic four days of working. Really had a good sleep till midday J. Then, went to Jusco to buy groceries and also to look for pants. Surprisingly, I figured out today that I’m lose a lot lately especially on the lower part of the body! I’m losing my ASS, which once WAS my asset!!!!!! None of the slim cut pants looks nicer without nice butt! 

Somewhat by end of the day, I had found 2 suitable pants for casual and office wear. Need to prepare for tomorrow work (mentally). One day off is not enough for me. I’m really hope that  I can do more on-calls starting from next months which is better than my noon or morning shift. Can get extra 100 bucks. Oh, talking about money, I remembered something! I need to do my budget for this month. huhuhu

04122011

  

Bad day altogether! (I’m wondering why there are continues bad events taking place from the moment I started this countdown!) Insecurities and misunderstandings are the major culprits in my relationship. Had few problems lately. Seriously, don’t know how to handle it. Taking one step at a time. Sometimes I wish I could escape from all of this.

Woke up feeling bad. And I was frustrated that I got to work on Sunday as well. So as usual I get ready to work. At LRT station a foreigner (Bangladeshi, I assume) was acting weirdly! He was neither a student nor worker. He was wearing formally. So I thought he was going to church or etc. Suddenly he came little bit closer and was staring at my handbag. The place was very crowded. So somewhat I braved myself and stay close to a group of students.

In the train, he was continuously staring at me and my bag. It was so obvious that people around me started to notice. Once I reached my station, KLCC I quickly try to get down. I felt someone was pushing from behind. I hold on to my handbag tightly. As soon as I came out of train, a passenger from the train itself (male) pushed that foreigner claiming that he was the one who pushed the crowd. Sooner it turns out to be a fight! Without delaying I quickly mixed with a huge crowd just to get away from this stranger.

Once I got out of the station, I took a deep breath. Luckily, the fight took place! It gave me a chance to escape! If it otherwise, I could not imagine what would have happen. Worst come to worst, he would have snatched my bag or ………..

I really hope I could forget all this and have a good night rest hoping that tomorrow will be a good day for me. (crossing my fingers)

03122011

Pretty bad day!

1.        Went late for work due to some technical problem with the LRT ~sign of bad day ahead.

2.       16 samples but only 2 people working L.  Start processing around 0730 and everything completed at 1600. Yes, and that’s working without any breakfast o lunch break! Felt so exhausted that I can’t able to stand a minute after 1600.

3.       Thought of checking out sales in Suria KLCC (pretty good offer), but it was a huge crowd everywhere due to UMNO meeting! So plan cancelled!

Good thing

1.       Took a week off starting from 1^st January till 7^th January

2.       Planning for a holiday in Krabi or Phuket. Yeay!

Countdown to my 25th b'day - 02122011

Exactly, 30 days from now on, I will be 25 years old! Like freaking 25! How I wish I can stop aging (just like Bella) at the age of 24. Or at least I hope my biological clock will stop! ! What I had achieved so far? A lot of things are buzzing in m mind now!

The only thing I had achieved at the age of 24 is finding a perfect career. A career which I loved and had passion since I’m 17. But I know I had developed and changed the way I think. Although it is not something everyone can see in a glance. 

Working life had taught me to be tough, independent, creative and etc. I was so naïve when I first started my working life. But now, I know which trail to follow, who to believe and what to do. Frankly speaking I’m looking for more challenges in my working life. And that what exactly I’m expecting more in coming years to strengthen myself and broaden my thinking. Got a task for the moment! Hope to excel well.

There are so much of differences me at the age of 23 and me the age of 24. So I’m going to note down each and everything that will happen in my last thirty days of 24. Hopefully it will be exciting and be something memorable!

Relaxing day

What is your definitions of relaxing day? Is it waking up late in the noon n do nothing at all? O do things you enjoy all day without any disturbance? Or etc... For me, my perfect day is my relaxing day:D.

There will be this warm sunshine in my room every morning to awake me from my sweet dreams. Sensitive to light, so there will be me with my blanket trying to hide away from it and catch up with my dreams. After around an hour of battle, I’ll give up and will find a will to get up from my warm bed.

I have sharp senses. I love nice smell in morning. I love fresh citrus smell or fresh ocean breeze smell or simple lavender aromatherapy smell (which I’m using currently). I love the way how the smell kindle with my senses and creating the very HAPPY mode. If u could ever trigger this happy mode (scientifically speaking, it is the hormone serotonin I’m talking about) ta dahh, u will only have a PERFECT day and I can guarantee you it will be your best day.

Simple stretch out just to release any tension in muscle from last night sleep. Then brush teeth n etc. Since kid, I have this habit of turning the tv on early morning especially in weekends to catch up with few cartoons. I’m not a hypocrite. I’ll admit that until now I do watch cartoons. Sometime I have to fight with my sister just to catch up with few episodes of Sponge Bob. Tom and Jerry, Looney Toons, Pink Panther and some classic cartoons are my favorites. There goes another an hour laughing my heart out at my favorite show. I simply enjoy the chillness of morning and I snuggle a while in my warm bed just to get heat while watching it. Girls they’ll always need something warm in the morning.

There comes another moment to stimulate my other sense. Taste bud! My perfect breakfast will be coffee with freshly baked apricot plus sunflower seed bread. It’s from Cake Sense. One of the tastiest bread I ever tasted! Skimming through newspaper of the day or facebooking while having my delicious breakfast will just spice up everything.

Pampering myself is also one of my agenda in my relaxing day. Applying body scrub while massaging the body, or just soak the tired foot in warm water or just put on the newly bought face mask from Body Shop will just do fine. There is something about pampering yourself. It makes you calm and extremely makes you feel good about yourself. It creates a positive look and you’ll start admiring everything especially this very moment where you can enjoy and do anything you like.

If you are staying with your loved ones, then just the presence of them by your side will simply brighten your day.

Lovey dovey mode turned on ;)

Haha… Bluey month with lil cute bluey things! The only happy blue. Still don’t know whom I’m talking about? It’s the little cute Smurf friends!!! Haha, I can see “ ohw, my Smurf reaction” lol!!!

That’s not what I want to write now although I bet u can see a lil bit of smurfy language here and there. I’m going to write about my euphoria feeling for the guy I’m in love with. Definitely it’s gonna be boring if you are not a lovey dovey person or in lovey dovey mood. So I’m warning you early not to continue.

Here is the thing about my guy. He is not so romantic but intense, we rarely control each other life, less calls but when he did his voice, concern or care is overwhelming. Simply put he had it all to make me go crazy.

What so intriguing about him? What made me fall so deeply for him? I’m still smurfing looking for the answer! haha … Is it the way he always look at me. Or is it the husky voice I always love to hear. Or is it the somewhat muscular + toned body. Or is it his character which sometimes can cause me to go on roller coaster ride. Or his sense of humor although sometimes he can be such an irritating species. Or his flirty message. Or the way he always makes me want him no matter what. All I know is he is my best friend and we know each other for more than 10 years. But the romantic relationship somewhat started 3 years ago. We can’t take it to next level because both of us still settling down. He is continuing his degree and I’m just found my dream profession. It is still a long way to go for us before we become financially stable and settle down. But I’m not going to worry about that. Because I’m enjoying the whole journey towards that goal where till death do us apart. Even if we did’nt not make it to that point, the memory of this is way beautiful to be treasured for eternity.

Another weird thing is the chemistry and the comfort I felt whenever he is around. I can feel the swinging heart beat and the blood rush which creates the type of euphoria like you are on top of the world. The simple flirting and playful seducing where at the end we both end up laughing at each other. ~ a bit annoying sometime~ Besides, I can be myself. With shorts and simple tee. Without make up, without any fear of what he might think or feel or will he like my flawed skin. People say the comfort and chemistry will build up as we see or live with each other but for us we only meet few months once. Yet it always feels like we lived 10 years together. Hmmmm weirdly the feeling is also the same even after our greatest fight (like no contact or no nothing for 7 months – my previous emo blog is also referring to the same person I’m talking here.)

I really hope there will be a happy ending for this. ~keep fingers crossed~. If it doesn’t then God might have a great plan for me! Life goes on as usual. But I like to live in present without the fear of past or puzzle of future. So now I’m soooooo smurfing in love with him!

Something cool

Are you sick of hearing non-sense songs all the day? Especially the one from the artist you hated most like Justin B or etc! Have u ever felt u could own a radio station that only plays your favourite artists or favourite songs? Now here is the solution! JANGO!!!!!!!  

No, no it’s not some kind of fancy word or jargons! That’s the website that could solve your problems! You can create your own radio station and listen to it all night long! No charge, no nothing! Very simple! Just log in using your facebook account or create your own account and that’s it! You can select your favourite artist (no limit) and hear your favourite music all day long! I’m not promoting it and I ain’t getting anything for it! But still I’m sharing this because I find it very cool!

Enjoy! J

Something special from my dearest cousin :D

dedicated to my awesome cousins...
Jaya Sutha Emmqay Dev Dewa Logeshan Letchumanan DhaNee Laksh EmmqayThivvya Emmqay Pravin Kanna

the strength of my life
in this fast paced life
there are so many things 
that may go out of control...
and at this moment of our lives...
there are some people who are
always ready to help and support us....
these are the people we trust and can
never live without...
in my life...these people are...
my cousins...
well..i am the kind of person who never
listens to advices...and my cousins
they know that..but anyhow..they make me listen to them..
even when they know that i am not listening...
when the day that all my hopes fall of my expectations...
is when i realized that whatever they have been saying is true..
i regret all the disagreements with them..
but they still approach me with a smile on
their faces and help me work it through the day...
and present me with the warm comfort...
as the only child in my family...
it is lonely and bored..
but my cousins never made me feelthat way...
they make me smile..no matter
what the day brings me...
because...the happiness they give me
is larger than anything on earth...
love you guys!!!!


Kayshaa Emmqay

This very precious! :) n I will love them always :D

My paradise....

Back again. I told tht i’ll update about my bird nest soon. So this is my “bird nest”. My own hiding place / comfort zone. It is my heaven.

One of the view from my room. Very impressive structures n love the the whole location.

This is my room. The pink reflection is from the curtain. It really creates a very homey mood when I got up in the morning despite the fact that some time this colour is way too bright that I can't sleep till midday on my off day!

  This is my combined bed. hehe .. Two single bed = One queen sized bed ;)

My messy room. My room, My mess, My business! lol   

Cool view of KL city. Sadly I don't have a SLR to get sharp image. will get it soon :D

And that's all. There will be more to come. I get a great sunset view from my room. It is just that I won't be home by then to captured it. Will get it soon :)

Sick again!

It has been a while since I got any cold, fever or sore throat. But this new disease - FOOD POISONING (my personal medical history) is torturing me! Now, I really have to think twice if I wants to grab any fried stuff from hawker's stall. Seriously, I'm somewhat became phobia to hawker's food. Because this is the second time I got food poisoning in 3 months period (last was in December) and it won't cure until I get a jab!

This whole feeling of being food poisoned is not a good feeling! I will be dehydrated due to diarrhea and continuous vomiting with every consumption of fluid! So nothing can be taken orally! Jab is the only option to stop my vomiting and save me from severe dehydration! Hmmm..... what a sensitive stomach! Now i crave for good meals. Lost my appetite due to this! Only having plain porridge or bread for the moment!

 I wonder how long I can survive with this.

Terrible Annual Dinner I Ever Had!

Haha...... I have been through a lot since I started to work in that particular company. But this one was one of the worst memories.  

Company’s annual dinner is done usually to appreciate the contribution of employee. So for that, I have seen the employer goes all the way to make it a grand event or at least special for his people! But the dinner I went, annual dinner I suppose was more of simple 8 course dinner. No speech of appreciation, no event, and etc.

 They held it in a restaurant, co-ventured with other companies I guess (coz there were more people that I have not met, n I know there is no other branch)! Everyone went in, the courses started n end of 8^th courses the boss said hi and bye and thanked everyone to be there!

I’m not being a critic here. But from what I have seen as a employee ( Food Technologist) of the company I think the operators deserve way more than that! It is not that the company is running in loss! Being a small company with employees less than 100 and revenues that could exceed rm100,000 per month from the production, I personally feel that it should have been more than a simple dinner! And the worst part is the food is not even tasty! At least they could have done it in more private place or should have made sure that the food served was good!

I swear to myself that I’m not going for that company’s annual dinner anymore! It is simply because I don’t want to erase the beautiful memory I had from other annual dinners which had been way bizarre and special than this with all my besties! The only best thing I got for making an effort to attend this dinner was the lucky draw! I got cash of RM 288.00. That made my day! lol

Being Myself

I have been a sober for quite sometimes. It’s time for me to loosen up a bit and enjoy myself. Life has been a bit unfair for me especially in relationship. Not only in my love life but also in other relationship. I have lost faith in some of my friends and besties. I don’t know how I am going to manage it or overcome it. But the one thing i know and i need right now is time for myself. So buckle up Jay n rejoice the life u have.

I know it is somewhat hard for a person to buckle up from heart break and disappointments. But the more I spend my time on it the more I become depressed and the more I’m wasting my own time and energy. “You live only for once and once you miss this moment you won’t get it back”.  I’m very well informed about this fact. So I’m going to make a difference to my already dead life.

I try to trace back my source of happiness. Spend days and night to really learn about myself (it’s a worth the effort actually). I found my family is the main source of my happiness. I love being myself. And I only can be that without any boundaries when I’m with my family members. We have unique understandings of each other. It is such a small family my mum, sis, bro and me, we always complement each other very much.  And our relationship grew deeper and deeper with every incidence and events. I’m so happy about it.

My next happiness is through the bond I shared with my cousins. I love all of them very much. Too much affection for them. We grew up together. And when I mentioned cousin, all of them are very young to me. Indeed very very young from me. We shared the bond since we were kids. From reading stories to all sort of funny games you could ever think, we had did it before. The age is not a problem for us. Nowadays kids maturity is much more difference than last time. So I can mingle with them without any problems. And I decided that time that we not going to be cousins for the sake of name but true cousins whom connected through lots of love and affection. I was not sure about all this that time. But all the little effort that I made to keep us close with each other turn out to be very successful. Each of us knew that we are meant to be together.  And now I am having a lots fun with them. The only obstacle we had for all our plans last time is money. And since I’m working now, I’m sponsoring all the plans, literally. Hehe. And I’m enjoying doing that. The next thing we would really want to do is going to Genting Highland and have our own gala time. We really look towards it.

  (Picture of my cousins at my bro's 21 b'day party) - still some missing in action.

And the last but not least ( if i wanna talk abt all the things tht would make me happy, tht would be a never ending story ;)) thing that I do really wants to do is music. I had  passion for this since I was six or seven. Due to lack of facilities I can’t even think about it. That’s how all my passion for music just faded away. I was very sad. But now I have an opportunity to do it again. All by myself, with my own money and without any other obstacles. So I’m starting with instruments first. I want to learn guitar. Checked out few guitars, but haven’t crossed one that would make me fall for it. I want it to be perfect. Because it will definitely be something for me. And I’m very sure I will find it soon J

Hope that the directions I took will help me discover myself again and will give me a new hope and reason to live this life once again!

   ( one of my passion too : fashion ! me n my newly bought dress) :)

Haunting Past

People says past is a ghost. It always will haunt u. I did not believe it at that time. But when I had an ugly past, all this seems true. And the past that haunts me currently is my so-called- first-love. Ohwww what a memorable moments it should be!!  But nothing of that sort did happen!!! Somehow when I look back the days we were happy it would be only few days. Mostly either we will fight or it will be complete silence for months.

This is not the first time we fought. But this time it was different. Usually, when we fought I know somehow it will only be for few hours. But now, I have no hope. It was quite ugly. I feel betrayed; that my trust for him had crushed into pieces. I don’t know whether I will recover from this and be able to move on with my life. But the one thing for sure is that love is not a comfortable zone for me, not anymore.

I’m not an easy girl. I don’t know whether it’s because of my personality or it’s the upbringing of my mother. It took me a very long time to really trust a guy and fell for him. Even the guy I fell for is one my close friend whom I know for more than 10 years. I had a crush for him in my schooling time. But I was not really dare to confess or express my love. I thought we were too young for this.

So when I felt it was the correct moment, I said it out to him. Even that happened after I came to know that he also had crush on me. At beginning, it felts like you are in heaven. As though you met your soul mate and meant for each other. While I was flying high with the euphoria feeling somehow he felt a bit insecure. Previously he had been into few relationships. None of it ever worked out. So he felt that relationship is not meant for him. But somehow I tried my very best to convince him. I think he never really come out of that insecure feeling.

That was the main ground for all the fights we had. His insecurities and mine too. I felt that it was not fair. It is really not fair to take past relationship as precedence to start a new one. I’ve given my best. But he did not really see it. So I found out that all that i had ever done is pointless and hopeless. It aint doing anything good to the relationship. At some situation I know it seemed that I was in desperate condition.  And I know I can’t endure all this; suffer from all the hurts n etc. I quit it. I said it was over.

Months passed by. Things changed. Certain things took charge of me. I started to forget all these things and somehow move on. Suddenly, there were few circumstances brought us together; made us to meet each other. We share the same circles of friends. So any friend’s event or parties we tend to meet each other. It was awkward. We kept our relationship secret as we don’t want any havocs from our friends. So none of our friends ever knew about the things that had happened between us. That made the whole situation even worst.

But what worries me now is whether my decision to quit is correct or no. I see the pain in his eyes. And I know what he is going through for I am going through the same situation. Can I really trust my instinct? It failed me not once but twice. If what I felt for him is really true and strong, faith will brings us together. Or at least he will try to take chances to make this situation better. But if any of these things aint happening, then we were not meant to be with each other. All the things that I ever felt for him is only a infatuation!

Dissatisfied!

I have been quite busy till I have no bloody time for myself and also for my blog. My new job keeping me away from everything. The last thing I ever want in my life two weeks back was getting myself a proper job and settled down.

I went for few interviews. Mostly will succeed in the first interviews. They will say that they will call for the next interview and that’s it. U won’t get any answers or news from them. Is this one way to say NO to a successful first interviews candidates? At last, I got a decent job for myself. I was hired by a food company, AIM food manufacturing in Cheng, Melaka for Food Technologist position. Although it is not directly related to what I majored in, I was glad that it will somehow link back to biotechnology or sciences.

Happily started my job on 8^th November 2010. The first day, all the rules and rego was read to me. And they, made sure I truly understand all of them- literally. Then, came the discipline part. They looked at my nicely polished long nails n next minute I know there was a nail clipper right next to me. And they asked me to cut it all right at the moment!!! I was sooooo broken hearted. I know the last time I have seen my finger nails short was back in my primary school when I was in primary six. I have given no choice. It was part of HACCP for those who are working in food industry. Then came the second rule. UCANT WEAR ANY BLOODY PERFUME!!!!!! U gotta be kidding me!! What is a life for a girl without perfume? I don’t know about others. But I never leave the house without perfume. But now, for the job sake I’m doing it. While I’m trying to absorb all these rules in one day, there came the third rule. U CAN’T WEAR ANY ACCESSORIES. No earings, no chain, no hairclips and no nothing. 6 out of 7 days I have to be like this. What a life I’m having!!!! With all this, everyday I have to do overtime. So I’ll leave the house at 8am and will be back home at 8 or sometime 9 pm.

What I could do now? I have to go through this at least for 1 year, until I learnt all the skills and get a year experience. Then, I can apply for other company which is more fun working with. So for the moment I’m trying my best to adapt into this new environment and “fun-filling” working life.

                            

                                               

What a break......

It had been almost three months since I lastly wrote. Too busy or should I say I kept myself busy!!! Many events took place during this period of time. Part time job, few interviews in Multinational Company’s (MNC), break-up with my childhood love and my graduation. Detailed story will be up soon... J

My First Date- 24.07.2010

It is the most happiest, nervous, and irritating moment of my life. Confused? I know. All this feeling does not co-relate to each other. But this is how I felt on that day. It was planned at last minute. I mean very last minute. He called me around noon and asked me out for a movie (this is my childhood friend; we had a crush and now it is developing to love). We used to hang out quite often last time when we were friends. And most of the time it will be with some of my other colleagues as well. Never alone. This is the first time that we want to do it alone. I was very excited and nervous at the same time. I asked my mum (I told her about our relationship and she accepted!) and she said okay very easily. So we planned to go for Inception, 10pm show.

I started to try almost all clothes in my closet to choose the best to wear that night. And found one finally. I started to get ready when the clock struck at 8pm. It only took me half an hour to get ready. I made sure I look simple but sexy ;) in my own way. I don’t want to show him that I was excited for the moment although the truth is I was very very excited. The clock showed 9pm. He has not showed up. “Oh no, he’s late for his first date”? I wonder. I used to tease him last time by saying that he will be late for all important things in his life especially anything got to do with GIRLS when he used come late for any discussion or group study. And now he really did. I don’t know whether he did it purposely or he was up to something. So I waited and the clock showed 10pm. Definitely, we cannot make it for 10pm show. I messaged him. And he said one of his friend and his friend’s girlfriend wants to follow him as well. So it became the so-called double date. He said we will catch up the midnight show. My mum was kinda mad at me for going out late night (well she was worried) but she did allow me. Until now she did not really explained to me why she would take that risk. Is it because she trusts me a lot or is it because she trusts him a lot. I dared not ask her.

He was at my house at 10.15pm. We went by his car together with his friend as well. I was really mad at him and thought of scolding him for being late but when I saw the way his eye bloomed with excitement when he saw me get into his car made me forget everything (very easy to compel me right- only this guy does has the trick). It has been seven months since I lastly met him. We sort of confessed our love to each other last October. But our relationship did not progress much since we were apart from each other. I was in Sarawak and he stayed in Kuala Lumpur. And I was also very busy with my Final year that I had neglected and misunderstood him several times. So this is the first time we are meeting each other after many minor quarrels, affection, intimate conversation etc.

Everything went well. As usual we enjoyed teasing each other and were updating each other about our lives and where we were heading next - I mean in life ;). I was lost at certain moments when his friend started to talk. This is the first time I ever met him. So there was not much I could share in their conversation. And their conversation was specific about someone or something that they knew or shared. So I kept quiet. When he realized that, he tried to get me into his conversation by making it a general conversation. I appreciate it but the whole idea of double date sort of switched me off. It has been long since I met him. I want his attention on me. I want to have him for myself (I know I sounded possessive!! I’m well aware of that too). So, the idea of sharing him with his friend during our first date just pissed me off. I can’t even have any private chat with him. I even thought twice to hold his hand or to lie on his shoulder during the movie. But I dismissed the thought of it soon. I cannot show my affection publicly. It feels awkward! I know I’m weird but I just can’t do it.

So the rest of the night, I tried my best to be nice to his friends. I just didn’t want to create any bad impression from his friends on the first meeting itself. All of us enjoyed the movie. It was a mind blowing movie. But all my fantasies regarding how my first date will be were trashed. Nothing happened. Not even a goodbye kiss. Hmmm ...

In a nutshell, these are some big NO-NO’s if you are going for First date:

1.      Don’t be late. You might create bad impression

2.      Don’t do double date on your first date

3.      Even if you do, Don’t bring a friend that only either one of you is close to them – communication barrier

4.      If possible select a slow moving or boring movie that you need to concentrate less so that you could spend time or talk to each other  

5.      Lastly, Guys end your night with something sweet or memorable. It is a day that you will remember forever.

Love Story......

This is the story of a girl who waited patiently for so long for her love to be understood by a particular guy that stole her heart. They were childhood friends and know each other for around 10 years. It started with friendship and somewhere in the middle during their adolescent they realized it is not friendship anymore. Everything they share to each other has deep meaning and it was very intimate. Both of them are well aware of the hormonal changes and chemistry that taking place between them but neither of them wants to admit it. Their EGO, PRIDE, and FEAR of rejection hold them back. So what they did? It is easy to guess. They hide their feeling. How long they can do this? The boundaries broke one day. They confessed to each other. It was an awkward moment for both of them but it was undeniably sweet. They did not even think that their friendship will take a new direction. But it was the happiest moment in their life (at least for the girl). Now both of them just hope that they will be there for each other for the rest of their life while enjoying each other's company.