06122011

 Suffering from insomnia!  From last night. My eyes were wide awake till my alarm rang at 0530. I was very restless and tired. But surprisingly I had a really good and interesting day at work. First of all, we had few samples. So by 1200 we were settled with our processing.

 Later on, our Managing Director, Dato Sharon low pay a visit to lab. She brought a real human embryo sac just for us to get a better picture on how to withdraw cord blood from umbilical cord. It was thick tissues with lots of blood vessels. I actually touched (with gloves) and feel the structures of umbilical cord. It was very rubberish yet very strong. It really need sharp surgical scissors to cut it off. Besides, we also examine the amniotic membrane. It was as though it made of thick fibers plus mesh of flexible membranes. It was very stretchable and flexible. It really took quite force just to tear it off. Other than this, we examine placenta. It provides nutrient and oxygen to fetus during pregnancy. So, we can see a lot of thick tissues with lots of blood vessels. At one point, the structures look a bit like brain (but not as pale as brain).

Well being a Biomedical Technologist, doesn’t expose us to events behind the scenes especially the procedures involved in withdrawing blood from umbilical cord when the baby born. Hence, today experience was really great. It just makes me to appreciate the very nature of human being. I just wonder how much of force and pain a mother should have to go through during the labor pain. It really seems very scary now.

I was very excited and curious during the whole procedure. But only later on, I got the effect. I can’t have my food. I was kept on thinking about the structures. I felt a lump at my throat throughout the evening. Hahaha side effect I guess. Luckily, I was not a doctor.

05122011

Hahahaha! A Day for shopping!!! Finally, I had a day off after hectic four days of working. Really had a good sleep till midday J. Then, went to Jusco to buy groceries and also to look for pants. Surprisingly, I figured out today that I’m lose a lot lately especially on the lower part of the body! I’m losing my ASS, which once WAS my asset!!!!!! None of the slim cut pants looks nicer without nice butt! 

Somewhat by end of the day, I had found 2 suitable pants for casual and office wear. Need to prepare for tomorrow work (mentally). One day off is not enough for me. I’m really hope that  I can do more on-calls starting from next months which is better than my noon or morning shift. Can get extra 100 bucks. Oh, talking about money, I remembered something! I need to do my budget for this month. huhuhu

04122011

  

Bad day altogether! (I’m wondering why there are continues bad events taking place from the moment I started this countdown!) Insecurities and misunderstandings are the major culprits in my relationship. Had few problems lately. Seriously, don’t know how to handle it. Taking one step at a time. Sometimes I wish I could escape from all of this.

Woke up feeling bad. And I was frustrated that I got to work on Sunday as well. So as usual I get ready to work. At LRT station a foreigner (Bangladeshi, I assume) was acting weirdly! He was neither a student nor worker. He was wearing formally. So I thought he was going to church or etc. Suddenly he came little bit closer and was staring at my handbag. The place was very crowded. So somewhat I braved myself and stay close to a group of students.

In the train, he was continuously staring at me and my bag. It was so obvious that people around me started to notice. Once I reached my station, KLCC I quickly try to get down. I felt someone was pushing from behind. I hold on to my handbag tightly. As soon as I came out of train, a passenger from the train itself (male) pushed that foreigner claiming that he was the one who pushed the crowd. Sooner it turns out to be a fight! Without delaying I quickly mixed with a huge crowd just to get away from this stranger.

Once I got out of the station, I took a deep breath. Luckily, the fight took place! It gave me a chance to escape! If it otherwise, I could not imagine what would have happen. Worst come to worst, he would have snatched my bag or ………..

I really hope I could forget all this and have a good night rest hoping that tomorrow will be a good day for me. (crossing my fingers)

03122011

Pretty bad day!

1.        Went late for work due to some technical problem with the LRT ~sign of bad day ahead.

2.       16 samples but only 2 people working L.  Start processing around 0730 and everything completed at 1600. Yes, and that’s working without any breakfast o lunch break! Felt so exhausted that I can’t able to stand a minute after 1600.

3.       Thought of checking out sales in Suria KLCC (pretty good offer), but it was a huge crowd everywhere due to UMNO meeting! So plan cancelled!

Good thing

1.       Took a week off starting from 1^st January till 7^th January

2.       Planning for a holiday in Krabi or Phuket. Yeay!

Countdown to my 25th b'day - 02122011

Exactly, 30 days from now on, I will be 25 years old! Like freaking 25! How I wish I can stop aging (just like Bella) at the age of 24. Or at least I hope my biological clock will stop! ! What I had achieved so far? A lot of things are buzzing in m mind now!

The only thing I had achieved at the age of 24 is finding a perfect career. A career which I loved and had passion since I’m 17. But I know I had developed and changed the way I think. Although it is not something everyone can see in a glance. 

Working life had taught me to be tough, independent, creative and etc. I was so naïve when I first started my working life. But now, I know which trail to follow, who to believe and what to do. Frankly speaking I’m looking for more challenges in my working life. And that what exactly I’m expecting more in coming years to strengthen myself and broaden my thinking. Got a task for the moment! Hope to excel well.

There are so much of differences me at the age of 23 and me the age of 24. So I’m going to note down each and everything that will happen in my last thirty days of 24. Hopefully it will be exciting and be something memorable!

Relaxing day

What is your definitions of relaxing day? Is it waking up late in the noon n do nothing at all? O do things you enjoy all day without any disturbance? Or etc... For me, my perfect day is my relaxing day:D.

There will be this warm sunshine in my room every morning to awake me from my sweet dreams. Sensitive to light, so there will be me with my blanket trying to hide away from it and catch up with my dreams. After around an hour of battle, I’ll give up and will find a will to get up from my warm bed.

I have sharp senses. I love nice smell in morning. I love fresh citrus smell or fresh ocean breeze smell or simple lavender aromatherapy smell (which I’m using currently). I love the way how the smell kindle with my senses and creating the very HAPPY mode. If u could ever trigger this happy mode (scientifically speaking, it is the hormone serotonin I’m talking about) ta dahh, u will only have a PERFECT day and I can guarantee you it will be your best day.

Simple stretch out just to release any tension in muscle from last night sleep. Then brush teeth n etc. Since kid, I have this habit of turning the tv on early morning especially in weekends to catch up with few cartoons. I’m not a hypocrite. I’ll admit that until now I do watch cartoons. Sometime I have to fight with my sister just to catch up with few episodes of Sponge Bob. Tom and Jerry, Looney Toons, Pink Panther and some classic cartoons are my favorites. There goes another an hour laughing my heart out at my favorite show. I simply enjoy the chillness of morning and I snuggle a while in my warm bed just to get heat while watching it. Girls they’ll always need something warm in the morning.

There comes another moment to stimulate my other sense. Taste bud! My perfect breakfast will be coffee with freshly baked apricot plus sunflower seed bread. It’s from Cake Sense. One of the tastiest bread I ever tasted! Skimming through newspaper of the day or facebooking while having my delicious breakfast will just spice up everything.

Pampering myself is also one of my agenda in my relaxing day. Applying body scrub while massaging the body, or just soak the tired foot in warm water or just put on the newly bought face mask from Body Shop will just do fine. There is something about pampering yourself. It makes you calm and extremely makes you feel good about yourself. It creates a positive look and you’ll start admiring everything especially this very moment where you can enjoy and do anything you like.

If you are staying with your loved ones, then just the presence of them by your side will simply brighten your day.

Lovey dovey mode turned on ;)

Haha… Bluey month with lil cute bluey things! The only happy blue. Still don’t know whom I’m talking about? It’s the little cute Smurf friends!!! Haha, I can see “ ohw, my Smurf reaction” lol!!!

That’s not what I want to write now although I bet u can see a lil bit of smurfy language here and there. I’m going to write about my euphoria feeling for the guy I’m in love with. Definitely it’s gonna be boring if you are not a lovey dovey person or in lovey dovey mood. So I’m warning you early not to continue.

Here is the thing about my guy. He is not so romantic but intense, we rarely control each other life, less calls but when he did his voice, concern or care is overwhelming. Simply put he had it all to make me go crazy.

What so intriguing about him? What made me fall so deeply for him? I’m still smurfing looking for the answer! haha … Is it the way he always look at me. Or is it the husky voice I always love to hear. Or is it the somewhat muscular + toned body. Or is it his character which sometimes can cause me to go on roller coaster ride. Or his sense of humor although sometimes he can be such an irritating species. Or his flirty message. Or the way he always makes me want him no matter what. All I know is he is my best friend and we know each other for more than 10 years. But the romantic relationship somewhat started 3 years ago. We can’t take it to next level because both of us still settling down. He is continuing his degree and I’m just found my dream profession. It is still a long way to go for us before we become financially stable and settle down. But I’m not going to worry about that. Because I’m enjoying the whole journey towards that goal where till death do us apart. Even if we did’nt not make it to that point, the memory of this is way beautiful to be treasured for eternity.

Another weird thing is the chemistry and the comfort I felt whenever he is around. I can feel the swinging heart beat and the blood rush which creates the type of euphoria like you are on top of the world. The simple flirting and playful seducing where at the end we both end up laughing at each other. ~ a bit annoying sometime~ Besides, I can be myself. With shorts and simple tee. Without make up, without any fear of what he might think or feel or will he like my flawed skin. People say the comfort and chemistry will build up as we see or live with each other but for us we only meet few months once. Yet it always feels like we lived 10 years together. Hmmmm weirdly the feeling is also the same even after our greatest fight (like no contact or no nothing for 7 months – my previous emo blog is also referring to the same person I’m talking here.)

I really hope there will be a happy ending for this. ~keep fingers crossed~. If it doesn’t then God might have a great plan for me! Life goes on as usual. But I like to live in present without the fear of past or puzzle of future. So now I’m soooooo smurfing in love with him!