Haha… Bluey month with lil cute bluey things! The only happy blue. Still don’t know whom I’m talking about? It’s the little cute Smurf friends!!! Haha, I can see “ ohw, my Smurf reaction” lol!!!
That’s not what I want to write now although I bet u can see a lil bit of smurfy language here and there. I’m going to write about my euphoria feeling for the guy I’m in love with. Definitely it’s gonna be boring if you are not a lovey dovey person or in lovey dovey mood. So I’m warning you early not to continue.
Here is the thing about my guy. He is not so romantic but intense, we rarely control each other life, less calls but when he did his voice, concern or care is overwhelming. Simply put he had it all to make me go crazy.
What so intriguing about him? What made me fall so deeply for him? I’m still smurfing looking for the answer! haha … Is it the way he always look at me. Or is it the husky voice I always love to hear. Or is it the somewhat muscular + toned body. Or is it his character which sometimes can cause me to go on roller coaster ride. Or his sense of humor although sometimes he can be such an irritating species. Or his flirty message. Or the way he always makes me want him no matter what. All I know is he is my best friend and we know each other for more than 10 years. But the romantic relationship somewhat started 3 years ago. We can’t take it to next level because both of us still settling down. He is continuing his degree and I’m just found my dream profession. It is still a long way to go for us before we become financially stable and settle down. But I’m not going to worry about that. Because I’m enjoying the whole journey towards that goal where till death do us apart. Even if we did’nt not make it to that point, the memory of this is way beautiful to be treasured for eternity.
Another weird thing is the chemistry and the comfort I felt whenever he is around. I can feel the swinging heart beat and the blood rush which creates the type of euphoria like you are on top of the world. The simple flirting and playful seducing where at the end we both end up laughing at each other. ~ a bit annoying sometime~ Besides, I can be myself. With shorts and simple tee. Without make up, without any fear of what he might think or feel or will he like my flawed skin. People say the comfort and chemistry will build up as we see or live with each other but for us we only meet few months once. Yet it always feels like we lived 10 years together. Hmmmm weirdly the feeling is also the same even after our greatest fight (like no contact or no nothing for 7 months – my previous emo blog is also referring to the same person I’m talking here.)
I really hope there will be a happy ending for this. ~keep fingers crossed~. If it doesn’t then God might have a great plan for me! Life goes on as usual. But I like to live in present without the fear of past or puzzle of future. So now I’m soooooo smurfing in love with him!
